:)

today's a good day

New

My cage has many rooms,
Damask and dark,
Nothing there sings,
Not even a lark.

Larks never will you know,
When they're captive,
Teach me to be,
More adaptive...

As I'm writing this, I can see a bank of clouds approaching. The tips of the nearest bits are tinged a dusky pink, with a few glints of orange. But, as your eye travels along the line, the pink drowns into purple, which fades gradually to a deep, sickly, grayish blue. It's like a wall that's alive, moving slowly forward. You can only accept it and hope that the wind won't pick you up and blow you away.

Last night, the sky was perfectly clear. I went and stood in my driveway for about an hour and just looked at the stars. I didn't have shoes on. But it was so beautiful I just stayed there and sang for a while. I hardly remember what - but among the songs I sang, the last was Green Finch and Linnet Bird, from Sweeney Todd.

It's a powerful song about captivity and the feeling of being powerless. The lyrics are quite depressing. However, if you look deeper, it is actually a cheerful song. The character admits she is not allowed to "fly," however, she embraces the fact that her spirit is kept alive through the power of her dreams, her song.

If I cannot fly,
Let me sing...

So, it was late at night, I was a bit cold, and I was singing a song that holds a lot of meaning for me. All of the sudden, the wind started to pick up. It was somewhat frightening. The sky was still completely clear, the stars were shining, yet it felt like a hurricane. Branches were tossing about, the screen door started slamming violently against siding, and I could barely hear myself.

But I finished the song.

Something

The twinkle
Of teardrops -
Glistening like gold -
Call to angels:
Send the rain
Plunge me into cold.

Terrible

Phantom of the Opera 2, or "Love Never Dies" SUCKS. Majorly.

they ruined it
for eternity

it's so terrible

so terrible
i

i

i can't even


no

how

could
they
do
such
a
thing


(majorrrrr spoilers ahead, fyi)



NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO









Meg shoots Christine.

MEG

MEG LOVES THE PHANTOM

and she

shoots
Christine
out of jealousy.

...

...

>:(


nooooooo
no
no
no
no
no

NO

it's so terrible
i can't even finish this song

it's so terrible

i can't even describe it

I HATE ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER

he ruined

the phantom of the opera.

i can't believe it.

no way.

NO.

UGH

UGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGH.

the 'present tense' of the musical starts out with Meg and Madame Giry working at the park. meg dances and sings as a...eh...'vaudeville' singer. madame giry hid the phantom in france, smuggled him to calais, shipped him to america, and helped him buy the carnival.

they think that the phantom admires meg for her singing/dancing, so meg is encouraged. ('only for you' a song)

but the phantom is obsessed with christine still

and invites her to sing for a large amount of money

raoul is a drunken gambler who lost all his money

so he accepts the offer and they come to america with their ten year old son, gustave.

christine runs into the phantom ('mr. y') yes that's his fake name. Mr. Y. .............WHY ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

they confess their undying love for each other.

turns out everything about the first musical was A LIE.

the phantom didn't GIVE UP CHRISTINE and REDEEM himself.

NOOOOOOOOO

instead, on christine's wedding night, they had a little meeting.

YEAH. and apparently christine was the one that snuck out and found him.

Cause you know, christine just LOVED being with the phantom and wasn't repulsed/terrified by him at all.... (not that that was good, but that's how it WAS!!)

Christine also DEFINITELY wasn't in love with Raoul! And Raoul DEFINITELY wasn't a good man who truely loved Christine (UM HELLO---ALL I ASK OF YOU!?!?!?!? WHAT THE HECK ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER?!?!?!?)

so yeah.

turns out, GUSTAVE IS the PHANTOM'S SON>

ahullllllllllllllldia ndfusnvdf; sbiuva;nu;iuavdinfjsldkv,cmnbzkjfgaehrlkn

Anyway

So

Then Raoul sings this PATHETIC drunken song with jazz playing in the background called "why does she love me"

oh yeah, he's abusive too, and hits gustave.

and christine tells gustave it's just his way of showing his love.
...........................

>_>

............................

anyway

Raoul meets the phantom.

they make a deal -- if Christine sings this aria that the phantom wrote for her, then Raoul will just 'go away and disappear' <- I QUOTE. If she doesn't, then the phantom will pay off all of Raoul's gambling debts.

Well, it happens that meg and christine had already met before this---i forget when, it kinda blended together in one nightmareish black hole--- and meg doesn't like her because she found out that christine would be singing, and meg was actually the star here. she was the main singer/dancer. but christine takes top billing.

so meg performs her dumb little dance/strip number (ok...it's not a strip number but it SOUNDS LIKE IT IT"S SO STUPID it's called 'bathing beauties" and it goes "bathing beauties!---HELLO!! (said in most barbie voice you can imagine times 10,000,000) IT"S IDIOTIC

then she finds out that the phantom wasn't listening because christine was more important or some such junk.

so she goes all whiney emo and her mother sweetly helps matters by saying "EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE HAS BEEN WASTED! IT WAS ALL FOR NOTHING!" several times over and over again. not even lying.

christine sings her big aria while she told her son gustave to wait outside her dressing room.

raoul just 'leaves' without a fuss, you never see him again. he literally disappears

oh yeah, the phantom knows gustave is his son btw. and christine knows he knows. because he confronted her about it. which was stupid.

anyway, then the phantom and christine are IN LOVE OMGOSH but then OMGOSH gustave is MISSING and OMGOSH WHO COULD IT BEEEEEEEEE?

omgosh it's Madame GIRY!?!?!?!?

UH NO but the phantom thinks it is

so he gets all 'i'll rip her from limb to limb!" <------quote, and yes it's STUPIDOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

MDMME. GIRY: WHAT THE HECK I DIDN"T DO IT I KNEW IT WAS YOUR SON!

ME: DID EVERYONE BUT THE PHANTOM AND RAOUL KNOW WHOSE SON HE WAS?!?!?!?

then this random employee is like, oh, i saw meg with this little boy earlier OOPS i guess that MIGHT have been important, gee golly willikers

so they find gustave and meg

who has a gun

but not after gustave says idiotic things like "I want to go back to my mother please!" and "you're hurting me!" exact quotes

and meg goes into a giant monologue about how she sold her body to get the carnival funded and the permits issued and the good press etc. etc. etc.

SHE GOES COMPLETELY INSANE.

and phantom is like: oh give me the gun meg, give me the chance to see you clear at last, forgive me for not seeing what you've done for me bleah blah blah balhhhh you've been ignored and pushed aside and bruised and bleah bleah bleah and i can see the beauty underneath...etc....we can't all be like christine..." <--fatal and stupid mistake.

she shoots her.

mother dear please say something! <--gustave

Giry who can help? <--phantom

Where's papa? <---gustave

OH GUESS WHAT DUDE YOUR FATHERS ACTUALLY THE PHANTOM CUAZ IM A CHEATAHHHHHHH WHAT UP SUCKA <--Christine (ok sang and cheesy)


SHE's DYING but she has the breath for OPERA and singing about who is father is! And then she kisses the phantom and dramatically dies?!?!?

BUT FIRST SHE SINGS FOR LIKE THREE FREAKING MINTUES!?!?!?



the end














I HATE ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER





love,
an emotionally disturbed fan of 'phantom of the opera'
who cannot describe the utter hatred and despair and terribleness she is feeling

Drawing

This first drawing is of my friend's gaia avatar.


And this one is mine.

I Write About It

I don't think this needs an introduction.

---------------------

Pen slides across my world,
Ink escaping from constraints.
Black and white, yet it holds
Colors from a thousand paints.

Time shifts forward, onward,
Words suffocate the page.
Thoughts and dreams have escaped:
Have fled from a silent cage.

My heart is on the paper,
My soul is outlined.
A million hopeful possibilities,
Are written between blue lines.

I hug the notebook to me,
Hug my heart, hug my life.
My way to slowly fight against,
Anger, hate, death, and strife.

A single dream can change the world-
A life can be a shining light.
By your actions show them truth:
Simple words can hold might.

Even If It Hurts

Very dark, I apologize, I actually don't feel like this.
It just was a sudden idea I had and I wanted to see if it would work stylistically.

-------------------

a tender, stiff outcropping of flesh
peels slowly back, cutting through the mosaic of lines
which define my soul and skin

it chafes, ivory diffusing into red,
thick beak-like scabbing slowly spreading
the defined crescent around the nail plunges suddenly, waylaid, then
broken

ugly, disgusting, sickly thing, defiantly pushing its head towards the sun

and when you absentmindedly rub a finger over it, as if to implant
your print upon my own
it refuses to bend
tearing itself apart
and surrendering
the
precious
red
droplets
yet again

an infantile yet perfect agony

slowly cells rebuild
but inevitably shatter
whenever you caress my hand
repeating the same painful, pointless cycle
the bleeding and scabbing never end

and
i never say a word

the hurt has become precious to me
more valuable to myself
because
you
cause
it